SPEAKER_00 0:00

This morning has been a rough morning because I had to cancel work. Because I m made an error. I had a scheduling conflict with my excuse me. Excuse me, I had a scheduling contract conflict with my babysitter. And I wasn't stressed out because of that. I was stressed out because I had to tell my work. Like, oh man. You know what I mean? I have to be honest. I gotta tell him what happened. And that's that's stressful for me. Because I hate to miss work. I hate to let my employer down. You know what I mean? I hate to let him down. And I think the most part it's because I'm letting them down that makes me feel uneasy or stressed out about it. And then two, I have to contact the dispatcher. Some of the dispatchers are cool, but some of them might get in their feelings because they have to reschedule things and you know basically do their job. And sometimes they'll take it out on me or the person that's canceling the load. Which is why I like to keep everything on text message instead of on the phone. Because if it comes back to me, I said, Well, I could tell, like, you know, if it comes back, at least it's uh it's documented, you know what I mean? Uh, so that's why I do text messaging. Try to keep it at text messaging and try not to answer their call because it's not being recorded and something might get said, whatever, whatever. And I'm just wanting avoid all that, be professional, maintain professionalism with the dispatchers with my employer and stuff like that. Um, another thing too, I'm driving for an owner operator. It's his truck, you know, and feeling bad too because that's his truck. I'm making money for his truck, you know, for him. And to to to have a mess up like this is it's taxing on my brain, on my mind, like dang, like I'm letting people down. And I don't know where this really comes from. It might be come from the way I was raised, as far as like not wanting to let my father down and doing the things he tasked me to do, maybe I'm not sure. Um, but I get really anxious whenever I let I'm I'm I feel like I'm gonna let somebody down. And I feel like dispatchers will use that against uh a driver or somebody that they know might be like that, so they would use words to get into the driver's head to make them like backstep and be like, okay, well, maybe I can do half of the day, or maybe I can whatever, whatever, and and propose all these different things when you should just leave it at as I should just leave it at the initial. Hey, I can't make it. I'm trying to find somebody for the rest of the for the second half of the day, but if that doesn't pan out, I'll be available tomorrow. You know, maintain professionalism uh in in that instance. So I just wanted to share that with you guys. I've I've been trying to make a video at least uh once every three days. I'm over here, I'll be right there. My son's calling, he's awake. Um, but that thanks you guys for listening, for watching this video. If if you can relate, leave leave some save some comments below. Thank you. Bye.